The Diary of an Unborn Child

October 2
Today my life began. My parents do not know it yet. I am as small as the pollen of a flower, but it is I already. I will be a boy. I will have blond hair and blue eyes. Nearly everything is settled already.
(Lihatlah,, betapa bahagianya ia dapat menjadi bagian hidupmu...)

October 19
I have grown a little but I am still too small to do anything by myself. My mother does everything for me although she still does not know that she is carrying me under her heart. But I am a real person, just as a crumb of bread is still real bread. My mother exists. And I do too.
(Lihatlah... betapa dia mengira bahwa engkau melakukan segalanya yang terbaik untuk dirinya...)

October 23
My mouth is just now beginning to open. Just think, in a year or so I'll be laughing or later I'll start to talk. My first word will be : "MAMA".
(Lihatlah... betapa ia ingin menyebutkan kata itu... betapa ia ingin memanggilmu dengan sebutan "MAMA")

October 25
Today my heart began to beat. It will beat softly for the rest of my life, never stopping. After many years it will tire and stop, then I shall die. November 2I am growing continually. My arms and legs are taking shape. But I must wait a long time before these tiny legs will raise me to my mother's arm.
(Lihatlah... betapa ingin ia menyentuhmu...)

November 12
Tiny fingers are beginning to form on my hands. How small they are! One day, I'll stroke my mother's hair and tell her how nice she is.
(Lihatlah... betapa, ia ingin memegang rambutmu dan memujimu...)

November 20
Only today did the doctor told my mother that I am living here under her heart. How happy she must be! Are you happy, mother?
(Apakah engkau gembira seperti yang ia harapkan?)

November 25
Today is Thanksgiving. My mother and father are probably thinking about a name for me. And they don't even know that I am a little boy. So they are probably calling me Barbara! But I want to be called Andy. I am growing so big.
(Lihatlah... Ia sangat ingin engkau panggil dengan nama pemberianmu....)

December 10
My hair is growing. It is as bright and shiny as the sun. I wonder what kind of hair my mother has.
(Lihatlah... ia ingin melihat rambutmu, membandingkan rambutmu dengan rambutnya)

December 13
My eyes are almost fully developed although the lids are still shut. When mother brings me into the world, it will be full of sunshine and overflowing with flowers. I have never seen a flower, you know! But more than anything, I want to see my mommy. How do you look, mommy?
(Dia sangat ingin melihatmu lebih dari apapun yang akan dilihatnya di muka bumi ini....)

December 24
I wonder if my mother hears the delicate beat of my heart? Some children are born with sickly hearts and then the gentle fingers of the doctor performs miracles to make them healthy. But my heart is healthy. It beats so evenly : tup-tup, tup-tup. You shall have a healthy son, mother!
(Dia ingin engkau mendengar detak jantungnya yang sehat... dia ingin engkau memiliki anak yang sehat dan membahagiakanmu..)

December 28
Today... my mother killed me.
(Tapi,... engkau membunuhnya dan memutuskan harapannya...)